Feeling empty, feeling like it is not going to happen, feeling helpless, Just longing for a baby....
I notice myself feeling jealous of those who have had babies without the fight. I find myself not getting to attached to the children around me (my friends babies) when I hold them or visit them I find myself guarded almost afraid to get close to them to be rejected, just maybe if I don't get to close I won't miss what I don't have, when really all I want is what they have...... it is just a constant ache some days stronger then others & well today is a strong day, that is why I wonder if and when.
AF should be finding me this weekend the 22nd, then I will start clomid on day 3 to 7, ultra sound on cd10 hopefully O’ing on left side.
Hoping February is a good month…
Feeling empty, feeling like it is not going to happen, feeling helpless, Just longing for a baby....
I notice myself feeling jealous of those who have had babies without the fight. I find myself not getting to attached to the children around me (my friends babies) when I hold them or visit them I find myself guarded almost afraid to get close to them to be rejected, just maybe if I don't get to close I won't miss what I don't have, when really all I want is what they have...... it is just a constant ache some days stronger then others & well today is a strong day, that is why I wonder if and when.
AF should be finding me this weekend the 22nd, then I will start clomid on day 3 to 7, ultra sound on cd10 hopefully O’ing on left side.
Hoping February is a good month…
