I go again tomorrow for the HCG
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DH & I went to brunch yesterday with his dad and wife to the Royal Inn, about half way thru DH was talking about his business that he needs to get going on it more since we are pg.... he kept talking and the news went right over their heads...lol, so either they did not hear it or they have herd it enough times all ready that it did not register.. lol
As we were eating brunch, I did the breast check (I always do the breast check, where I push on my breast so that others do not notice (I hope) to see if they still hurt) and I noticed they did not hurt as much or if at all so of course I was a bit concerned. When I got home they started to hurt, oh the relief.....
Man the joys of going thru infertility and then become pg and having known the signs of a miscarriage are always on the mind. I just wish I could stop worrying, I wish I could go on with this pg & that I was innocent to what could go wrong & not worry or wonder what every little twitch is about or becoming the TP (Toilet paper) checking Queen to see if there is spot to wreck havoc on my world. People tell you not to worry but that is easy for them to say if they have not been down the road of Infertility…
In the end when I do have my baby in my arms safe from the harm my body could do to this sweet innocent child, knowing my body wanted to fight it off and get rid of my child …… It will be the greatest gift on earth to hold our baby the one we created. The fight we had to become parents, I sure hope I never loose the gratitude or take for granted of this little being that we are fighting so hard for.
