What a Journey for baby

This Journal will be about TTC with infertility, Highs lows just everything involved with our journey for our baby. Discovered after 2nd loss that I Have Unicornuate Uterus Right ovary buy my ribs, left behind uterus. Can only get pg from the left side.
^i^ 6weeks 8/24/00
^i^ 12weeks 6/7/01 ^i^
^i^ 9weeks 11/6/02, ectopic pg
^i^ William Clement was born to us silently on Dec 21, 2003(He was 19weeks)
^i^ on Aug 31/04 @ 10.5weeks Mini-we Baby Girl
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

13 weeks 5days.......

And I am still having issues with food, I want to eat but it's just not working with me. I start to gag....

Still pretty tired, I try to take a nap on my lunch break but for some reason now others decide to take there lunch at the same time now 1pm (they never use too) and all they want to do is talk talk talk or argue with each other and the are not quiet, when all I want to do is Image Hosted by ImageShack.us

. even if I am not sleeping and I am reading a book all by myself before they walk in the keep interrupting me telling me I should talk with them and put my book down when they come in. Ah NO this is my lunch I don't want to talk or argue with anyone because I answer the phones all day.....I like to have my quiet time, is that wrong of me?

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My mum calls every other day to check up on her "babies" (I am the youngest of 4 girls, I am her last baby whom is having a baby) I think she worries about me too.

3weeks till my u/s I wonder if baby will show us if it is a he or a she, I am feeling girl I could be wrong but it is what I feel. What is your guess???

Yvette A @ 3:38 p.m. : comments: 0

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

ah Breathe....

Had my nuchal translucency ultrasound today all went great baby measured at 12week 2days and I am 12weeks 4days today so right on target. The u/s Dr could not see a reason why I was bleeding everything looked great. He even switched it to 3d it was so neat we saw the baby's are leg back of head its back and yup a little butt, it was so cute but it hid its face right up against my uterus.

test results:
~ heart rate - 168bpm
~ baby measures - 6.34cm
~ All body parts apear normal.
~ Placenta is anterior (up front)
~ Amniotic fluid - normal
~ Risk of Trisomy 21 - 1/1818
~ Risk of Trisomy 13 + 18 - 1/5718
~ Cervix measures 3.9cm

Also met with the new Dr O. he was nice he explained that I am Hig risk to premature labor, breach baby, c-section which we already know. He also said that he has had about 30 other paitents with a UU and gone on to have a healthy pg, but in my case I am a bit more compilcated.
He did a pap & took 5 viles of blood from me. Checked mycervix again still nice and tight.

Next u/s is on May 16th,IVIG on May 17th and Dr O again on the 19th.

here are some pics: (click on a pic to see bigger)

Next u/s is on May 16th,IVIG on May 17th and Dr O again on the 19th.

here are some pics: (click on pic to see it bigger)

Yvette A @ 7:55 p.m. : comments: 1

Monday, April 18, 2005

1st Scare

I started bleeding yesterday around 5:30pm it was red not brown blood, my heart sank and I just thought no no not again.

I arrived at my sisters around 5:15pm then I went to the bathroom and low and behold....(I went before we left my house all was fine 30min later I'm bleeding)

My sister took me to the hospital, The waiting area was pretty empty so they got me into a bed withing 15min (I think that is a record)Two nurses came in asked all the info they felt bad about the losses. The other nurse was feeling my belly asking if it hurt any where which it did not,she mentioned that it feels harder more to the left so I told them I have a Unicornuate Uterus they had no clue what it was so I had to explaine. I told one nurse I had heard the heart beating this morning she was like really.. I going to get the doppler because I(she) always has a hard time finding the heart beats and since I know where it is she said lets listen for it (the other nurse did not beleive that I have been hearing it she said a comment like "it still to early to hear it" but I said I have been hearing it since 8week 5days the look she gave me was like yeah right) The other nurse came back with the doppler I pointed to where I always hear it ofcourse she could not find it so I ofered to find it Which I did, the other nurse said thats not it and the other nurse and I looked at each other and took the wand from me and moved it just a little and there it was nice and strong we both just looked at the other nurse (heart was beating about 150-160bpm) . Then Dr G finally came in after about 1hr and asked me all the same questions again then left the room, my sister and I just looked at each other. Then a male nurse came in to check my blood pressure the Dr finally came back he checked me out and cervix is closed nice and tight baby's heart still beating. The Dr said my uterus is measures where it should be but it goes way to the left, I said yes I have a unicornuate uterus, he sadi really that was confrimed?? Yes I had a MRI. He thinks my placenta may have seperated some which can cause the bleeding.

I am going for my IVIG right now, I see the Dr tomorrow after my ultrasound

The blood is now a dark brown, I have/had no cramps whatsoever so that is good.

please pray that precious says for at least another 12-14weeks. my goal is viability right now then we will go from there...

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Back from IVIG all went well & I am happy to report then when I went the the bathroom before I left there all was clear......hopefully it stays that way.

Yvette A @ 3:44 p.m. : comments: 0

Friday, April 15, 2005

I'm 12 weeks Today...

Today I walked into the 12week of my pg, or the 3rd month some would say or second trimester others would say.

For a "normal" pg you could say you were stepping out of the woods the pg should be good from here on, but for me I am walking deeper into the woods the forest is getting thicker the ground unknown. As this little miracle grows inside of me and gets bigger by the day we can only hope and pray my little UU lets this baby grow and that my body cooperates. I keep telling my body that this baby is a good thing a healthy baby that is good for my body not bad and to let this baby grow to embrace it.

I am on a message board with other women with Unicornuate Uterus, many of them have gone on to have very healthy babies even twins (which I was told would be impossible) but 6 sets of twins were born. Others have had preemies but others carried their baby full term even past the due date but most have had c-sections.

I do sit here and I do feel good about this pg, yes there are nervous days but I will say most of them are good.

I go for my next IVIG on Monday in the afternoon. On Tuesday I have my last hcg blood test then dh & I get to see our "Precious", we go for the Nuchal Translucency ultrasound. It is so neat to see the baby at this stage you can see almost everything baby wiggling around and sucking it's thumb, I wish we could get pictures but with this kind of u/s they don't do pictures.
Then in the afternoon we get to meet the High Risk OB who will be looking after me. I am excited and nervous.

I am still amazed that I am pg with all my pg (6 of them) I have only made it past the 12w make twice this being the second one.

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My sister and I have the same family Dr. N. (she is an awesome Dr) My sister went for an appointment the other day when she came back she told me that Dr N got a fax update on me from the Fertility Clinic. She was telling my sister about the comments they said about me that they think I am a remarkable person, they say it is truly amazing the way I take every pg with a positive attitude considering what I have been thru. They said some more things and Dr N said they hit the nail on the head for the way the described me... Hearing this makes me a bit embarrassed then all emotional because I don't see it that way, I am doing what I can to have a baby that is all.
Many people have told me they see me as an inspiration and that they would of giving up long ago.... Maybe it is just what you can handle and how you handle it all but I have not lost the fight nor am I ready to give up the battle, this has made me a stronger person, I myself wonder where this strength and determination comes from .... I guess it is what I can handle...................

Yvette A @ 2:55 p.m. : comments: 2

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Can we say GROSS!

On Sunday night I went downstairs to our basement, I first notice tuffs of cat hair everywhere (how much hair can a cat loose) Then as I was walking around doing some insecpting something else caught my eye as I walked closer I think my brain was not seening what my eyes saw.... It was a half eaten baby mouse GROSS!! All the was left behind was it's butt end and tail....gag gag gag. I started to call my dh to come down stairs then I started to gag..... I was thinking how did a mouse get in here! Then I thought which cat had the meal...gag gag gag. I think it was my Stuckie-boy he use to be stranded outside before he came to us and as for Lyric I don't think she has ever seen a mouse(she has always been an indoor cat) but she loves to chase the spiders & flies and eat them...so maybe, but I doubt it. I just can't imagine one of my kitties eating another animal then on the other hand YEAH because I don't want any mice in the house.

You can tell spring is here, all the little gofers are out and a bout but why do they think they can cross the road to get to the other side??? So ofcourse you see them all over the road....GROSS!

Yvette A @ 2:22 p.m. : comments: 2

Monday, April 04, 2005

Other pg’s scare me…

Right now I have 4 pg women around me and it SCARES me.

Every time I hear of another pg that is within a month of my due day it scares me, because I always feel that I could loose mine and they will go on and have a healthy baby.

With all my other pg’s I have been pg with other people and I was always the one to loose, I try to stay positive but I can’t help thinking those bad thoughts, yeah yeah I know you can shake me, pinch me, yell at me to stop thinking those thoughts but the truth is once you’ve had some losses those bad thoughts take over no matter how hard you try to push them out they always come back full force.

My sister called me this morning to tell not only is she going to be an auntie from me but she is going to be a great aunt as well, her Dh’s nephew wife is expecting a month before me and all that went thru my mind is another pg another mark against me, (don’t get me wrong I am happy for them) I know bad way of thinking, but this is how I feel.

I am always happy to here of others wonderful news but all in all other people’s pg scares me. I get scared for ME but I also get scared for them especially when they have not suffered infertility or losses I don’t want anyone to go thru that, they don’t know the pain, frustration and confusion that can happen they are just plain happy and excited the way I wish I could be but that has been tainted more then once.

I was looking in what would be our baby’s nursery over the weekend knowing it will not be decorated till the baby is in our arms safe and sound and safe from my body, I guess I don’t want to jinx myself then have an empty room so right now it is my craft room.

On a good note my pants are tighter, my little Precious heart is still beating away at 173bpm.

Since telling one of the Owners here at work about my pg he has not asked me to make him tea/coffee…lol…. He gets it himself. Nobody wants me to do anything and well that is just fine with me.

Yvette A @ 4:57 p.m. : comments: 1